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It begins with What are you? hollered from the perimeter of your front yard when you’re nine — younger, probably. You’ll be asked again throughout junior high and high school, then out in the world, in strip clubs, in food courts, over the phone, and at various menial jobs. The askers are expectant. They demand immediate gratification. […]
That’s right; I am queer, from queer folk, queer stock. The very queerest. Here we are, stuck on an island, a hollow, a swamp, the desert, no sooner settled than banished again. You bet I’m queer. I’m no landlord nor lawyer, no duke nor lord of the looms. I’m no cap doffer, no knee bender, […]
You’ve been wondering about your own relationship to open water. You’ve been wondering about the trauma and how it always finds its way to the surface, floating in the ocean. You’ve been wondering about how to protect that trauma from consumption. You’ve been wondering about departing, about being elsewhere. You have always thought if you […]
Strut, fly, gallop. There are so many ways to walk a street, but none of them will make you bulletproof. I got back from Mama’s and found myself stuck between street and gutter, Trevor knocking on the door early Sunday morning saying Vern been by again telling them they out if they don’t pay in […]
“Everybody talks about genocides around the world, but when the killing is slow and spread over a hundred years, no one notices. Where there are no mass graves, no one notices. American outrage is always for show. It has a shelf life. If that Griffin book had been Lynched Like Me, America might have looked […]
Koristeellisen oven yläpuolelle oli kiinnitetty Ranskan tasavallan tunnus. Liberté, Égalité, Fraternité. Hetken mielijohteesta Lea otti kauniista talosta valokuvan. Hän pyöritteli samalla mielessään tunnuslauseen viimeistä sanaa. Veljeydestä puhuttiin aika vähän, tai ainakin vähemmän kuin vapaudesta ja tasa-arvosta, hän pohti. Saati sisaruudesta, vaikka #metoo-liikkeen jälkeen tunnuksesta olikin näkynyt ranskalaisten ketjuliikkeiden t-paidoissa myös muotoa Liberté, Égalité, Sororité. Mitä […]
Iltapäivän rukoushetken jälkeen Abu Qatada nappasi mukaan teekannun, apupoika Elias lasit. He nousivat kirkon katolle nauttimaan keväisistä tuulenhenkäyksistä, pitämään toisilleen ruoanlaitto- ja šariaoppitunteja ja suomaan itselleen hetken tauon sapuskan tehtailusta kyltymättömille jihadisteille. “Tänään voitaisiin käydä uudestaan läpi edellisiä oppitunteja, vaikka erilaisia Mosulin alueen perinteisiä kubba-pyöryköitä”, kokki ehdotti.“Selvä. Minä kyselen sinulta šarianläksyt”, Elias vastasi.“Kabbagh-pyörykät?”“Niihin tulee bulguria, […]
“I don’t know if I ever liked you,” I say, and bathroom acoustics being what they are, the declaration is magnified and that much more unkind, which makes me feel bad until I see that he is missing a shoe, and I feel it anew, this terrible disappointment in myself that I am happy to […]
She was beginning to realize what she would soon know for sure: there was no plan to go back home or to go anywhere else, even, and her mother was lying each time she pretended that there was. The next day, she was sitting alone during lunch when Louisa cornered her, flanked by three beige […]
Nyt haluan kirjoittaa Nanan riippuvuudesta sisältäpäin. Niin minä haluan sen tuntea, ikään kuin se olisi oma riippuvuuteni. Tein päiväkirjaani yksityiskohtaisia muistiinpanoja hänen viimeisistä vuosistaan. Kirjoitin kuin antropologi, jolla on vain yksi tutkimuskohde, Nana. Voin kertoa, miltä hänen ihonsa näytti (kelmeältä), miltä hänen tukkansa näytti (kampaamattomalta, leikkaamattomalta). Voin kertoa, että hän, joka oli muutenkin aina ollut […]
“Definitely Mom isn’t herself. Daddy would scarcely recognize her. He’d had made her color her hair. He wouldn’t have wanted a wife that look her age. He’d be just sickened by this Hugo, looking like Che Guevara. Daddy hated communists. If we were a mafia family, we’d know what to do. We wouldn’t be wringing […]
This may be hard to believe, coming from a black man, but I’ve never stolen anything. Never cheated on my taxes or at cards. Never snuck into the movies or failed to give back the extra change to a drugstore cashier indifferent to the ways of mercantilism and minimum-wage expectations. I’ve never burgled a house. […]
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